How could you?!?
Choose to be here
In this turmoil and despair
WTF was I thinking?
How dare you? I?
Put me in this pain
Heartache and wailing is not what I signed up for
Is it?
Seething and fuming
Under the surface like a volcano
Desiring to erupt
Yet buried so deep
I’m furious because I love you
I’m mad because I miss you
I hate what you did
And how it feels now
It’s no use trying to disguise
The burning
Simmers with searing, scrapping claws
Ready to rip my hair out
Anger forbidden
Toward self,
Toward loves
Toward the dead and gone
Reveals itself as tears,
Safe, sobbing tears, are allowed
Fists and shouts are not
Yet
They know what you’re hiding
And so does your heart
Ready to hold you
In release
They’ve been waiting for me
I’ve been waiting
To let it all out
Why was I waiting?
Forgiveness asked for
And given
Of course
Anger celebrated
And welcomed
Of course
Copyright 2018 Sue Bowe and Wildfire Wisdom
